no posts, no apologies

[chris raettig <chris@raettig.org>]

i have to resist the natural temptation to apologise for not making a
journal posting in over a week. i'm not sure why, but i start to feel
guilty if i haven't updated in a while. theres a mild unspoken pressure
to get something written. and its completely irrational. this is
my site. i often espouse my views on how the audience is irrelevant
to me. for the most part i think i'm reasonably successful in embodying
this belief in what i write, and the way i choose to operate the site;
i dont get hung up over it if nobody visits. quantity and identity
of visitors is just so fundamentally not a part of why i started this
thing. this is why i dont employ any of the tricks commonly used to
increase traffic. i dont mutually link. i rarely hyperlink or filter
content at all. on the odd occasion i'll link to somebody elses site,
but i dont make a habit out of it. there is enough great content out
there and plenty of tools to help find it. in as much as i am aware
of the concept of audience, i credit them with enough intelligence
to be able to find the things of interest and relevance to them. 

this is not a magazine. i feel no compulsion to write things because
i think they would be of interest to other people. those things have
no place here, because 'here' is about me. take it or leave it.

so i'm not entirely sure why i feel guilty if i haven't posted anything.
i've already described how i'm not trying to keep an audience happy. 
i guess there must be some small part of that left in me. 

but i think too that silence can be as profound a message as any
scatty, clumsy posting i can cobble together. and i've been busy,
and joyous, and enjoying the moment. 

there are certainly impending postings. there are quite a few things
i want to journal, and i hope to have the time soon to do so. but
i'm going to make a conscious effort not to feel guilty when for
whatever reason i choose to say nothing for days on end.